Candid with moolah

it must take such a man to say i forgive you. no. it must take such faith to say i forgive you. because only at the point where you realize that you havent lost out, because you dont need the money, because God is bigger than your money, that you realize that it's not a big deal what he took from me. and though he wronged me in doing that, i'm free because you've taken from abundance. well and also because Christ died for you too.

make my momma proud

anthony asked me if making my momma proud is what motivates me.

got me thinking of what really motivates me, what drives the task-orientedness in me (which then brings out the monster), and yet at the same time, i can be perfectly comfortable with being average.

so questions to think about:

1)what motivates me?

2)what am i afraid of?

sink into the ground

thats actually not the weight of the world ono your shoulders, it's all the standards you want to meet and all the people you're trying to love despite yourself, by your own means - not possible my dear

Prepared

Preparedness is so underrated. Or rather I've underated it too much.

who's land is it anyway?

been running on adrenalin the past week and a half and i'm starting to tire. maybe being tired is good for now, cause then i stop and hopefully rest better. i've had so many listening points and what i'd like to deem as breakthroughs in the couple of weeks past and been brought through/driven by fear, exhilaration, anxiousness, thankfulness, helplessness, frustration, excitement, you name it, it's probably come by to visit recently.

today was a split-second of heartbreak when i saw the irrationality of God's unconditional love. the goodness that can come out of a meeting i somewhat dreaded and prayed about. hmm. yeah, prayer definitely answered.

step closer

I have spread my dreams under your feet;

Tread lightly, for you thread upon my dreams.

-WB Yeats

next season

" We don't have anything to prove nor anything to fight for.
After all, everything we have right now, is a gift. Everything we've become is a story of undeserved grace. Everywhere we go, we represent a promise larger than ourselves.
All we need to do is to turn up and believe!"

love-heart sticker!

me: wow are those stickers you have there?
little faith stops in her tracks, turns around, tries to remember if i'm her friend - though i doubt she remembers my name.
faith: pick one!
me: ooh which one do you want to give me?
faith is really distracted now because she was running after someone
faith: quick!
i quickly pick one and stick it on my finger

*//faithrunsoff