herbal cheeekin!!

i shall end my short and slow saturday with this post.
my day started at 12.30. i slept for about ten hours after reaching home at one plus last night from kensington.
mandy, su-ann, travis and i headed to the k bro's place after ocf last night to watch Old Boy.
it's a super sick arthouse film that eddie had to watch for one of his modules in uni. i really enjoyed it though. :D haha.. just liked the whole weirdness that it had.

anyway, i woke up, did QT, went to toast some bread and downloaded last sunday's sermon from the life expedition* website and listened to tim goh as i ate my toast. woohoo daily bread and daily bread.

four plus - headed to the city with dong to get stuff for dinner. heh. yupp! he cooked for us again today while i finished my accounting paper. :D once again, dinner was gerreat - HERBAL CHICKEN! i didn't realise how much i missed herbal chicken till he cooked it today. heehee.

DAAHHH! im still sniffly. maybe thats why ive been sleeping so much.
gnite world!

princess training!

today's psych paper was fairly do-able.

okok cut the crap. i just wanted to post about being pampered.

just last week, tiff and mandy came over to gwen's place to cook for joanna her and myself. mann the food was EXCELLENT!! woohooo!! so nice of them! we were busy studying for our math paper and and AND they bought us lindt chocolates! yummy! ok actually i think that dinner was better than the chocolate. having tiff and mandy over were like having two mothers over - cooked and cleaned. see! such unconditional love! i wanna learn to cook too! (heh heh heh stop laughing)

today, i was over at kensington and dong cooked dinner for the both of us. hmm. haha i must say it was pretty good. chicken macaroni soup with mushrooms and veg. he cooked AND cleaned while i did my accounting. he should have finished his exams sooner! this was the best dish he's cooked out of the three (other two being the grilled salmon and shepherd's pie).

dong: do you know why this is so much better than the other two?

(ans: because i helped with the other two dishes)

:(

im gonna learn to cook over the holidays. heh. i think.

OK GUORONG IM RUNNING!

yes, so i went for a short run with abby yesterday. very very short run.
THEN ARH! in the evening i started feeling sick-ish.
and i woke up today with a sore throat.

it's the periods i tell you.

periods wreck my immune system. see la! cannot fight the germs/bacteria/virus.

but it's okae. my housemates are so nice. lishan gave me a box of lemsips and zelia handed me a bottle of blackmores. :D


c'mon! im gonna pwn the psych paper tmr! woohooooo! (yes God please please please help me score tmr!!)

play up the music!

" [...] take a break for a bit today"
":) haha! i'm gonna spend today DOTAing!"
"you're so mocking me. i can feel it."

yay! HoI's finally OVERRRR! 4 papers down, two more to go. woohooooo!

tapping on the keyboard

i think the worst part about exams is not that they cause a lot of stress, or that they take away our play/sleep time, it's that they make you

PUT ON WEIGHT.

YUCK.
yuck yuck yuck yuck.
i hate it when people complain about weight.

i'm so gonna hibernate in my room the first week back in singapore till i get rid of some fat. actually fat is not easy to get rid of. so maybe i'll hide in my room for more than a week. then i'll go out for katong laksa, old chang kee curry puffs, chai tau kway, nasi lemak, roti prata what the hat then i'll put on so much weight again.

it's the exams i tell you.
complain complain complain. shut up luh elisa. yay math! woohoo.

OH tiff and mandy are cooking dinner for gwen joanna and me today!! :D

relationships

today was the first time i spent so much time with my housemates for quite some time. not like we spent a huge chunk of time together, but we managed to hang lose together just talking about drama and various things.
i was studying with gwen in the afternoon for a bit before going home to eat cause i was too hungry to concentrate.

wayne called.

Thank God he called. shucks, i should email him and tell him how much that call cheered me up.

jolene and i studied together in the evening. lishan suddenly called me to ask me to check if zelia was home because zelia was supposed to be home about an hour ago and her study buddy was worried because it was already nine plus. so i called home to get abby to check on ze who was in the shower :) an hour later, lishan texted me and told me she needed help with drama, so jolene and i made our way back. jo, ze and i ended up watching shan act, and we talked bout stuff.

that's my evening in a very chronological order. i suppose im gonna miss staying togethr with these people next year. man.. i guess i really enjoyed this evening because we were looking out for each other in very little but important ways. and that's good. :)

mm.. i just realised how important it really is to keep your relationships with your friends, not just on one person.



secret, quiet place.
in the stillness
please be there

something to get excited about!

i just finished a rough draft of my hoi essay! woohoo!! it still need quite a fair bit of touch up though, BUT BUT BUT at least im done with the hardest bits.

AND i finally finished all the proablity questions on my last math exercise sheet. sigh. not doing too good though - super not confident with the various types of probablities. i'll need help at math tutorial tmr.

this week's been crazily tough. probably the toughest week of my life. yeah. sheesh. it was worse than having a break up. and im not exaggerating.
when you break up at least you know why you're upset.
i had so many consecutive breakdowns this week for no particular reason it was not funny at all. why do i sound so cheery? i think i'm on a caffeine high. well the past two days have been better actually. i proabably wouldn't have made it through the week so well if it hadn't been for gwen.

she's so insanely crazy/hilarious you can't help but laugh even when you're depressed. okae i dunno if i was really depressed. but it felt like i was. but whatever luh, thank God it's all over! yay! thank you God!

i think the exams are making a lot of people behave weirdly. ok luh maybe not a lot. just me and my lawyer friend.

after the exams i'll be able to clean up my room yay!
i'm wondering if i should keep my stuff with dong or eelin. eelin's house will be empty for quite some time and i'm just quite afraid that someone might break in and steal all my things if i keep my stuff with her. paranoid eh? kensington won't be empty though. maybe only for a week or two?
sheesh there are so many things i can do after the exams.

fly back to singapore and celebrate ching's birthday with her! hahaha..

(yeah i think it's called a caffeine high)

To You O Lord

To You O Lord I lift up my soul
In you I trust O my God
Do not let me be put to shame
Nor let my enemies triumph over me

No one whose hope is in you
Will ever be put to shame
That's why my eyes are on you Oh Lord
Surround me, defend me
Oh how I need you
To you I lift up my soul
To you I lift up my soul

Show me your ways and teach me your paths
Guide me in truth lead me on
For you're my God, you are my Saviour
My hope is in you each moment of the day

Remember Lord your mercy and love
That ever flow from of old
Remember not the sins of my youth
Or my rebellious ways
According to your love remember me
According to your love
For you are good O Lord

How Deep the Father's Love for us

how deep the Father's love for us,
how vast beyond all measure
that he should give His only Son
and make a wretch His treasure

how great the pain of searing loss
the Father turns His face away
as wounds that marr the Chosen One
bring many sons to glory

behold the Man upon the cross
my sin upon His shoulder
ashamed i hear my mocking voice
call out among the scoffers

it was my sin that held Him there
until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
i know that it is finished

i will not boast in anything
no gifts no power no wisdom
but i will boast in Jesus Christ,
His death and ressurection

why should i gain from His reward?
i cannot give an answer
but this i know with all my heart
His wounds have made my ransom

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHING!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POLINE LIM CHING JIE!

see i titled my post with a greeting for YOU! :D

ok anyway, just a quick post cause i cant afford to break my HoI momentum. i was studying at gwen's last night (i fell asleep at 2) but i had so much fun. gwen makes me laugh a lot. i was really glad to have her though. i was stressed to the max yesterday i broke down and my plans to study were foiled. but she let me stay over at her place!

oh she didn't let me have her chair cause her butt's bigger than mine so she gave me the smaller chair. i complained that it was too small (for me to cross my legs properly) so she let me sit on her pillow. hahaha!

and the funniest thing ever happened when i saw this weird looking thingum lyring around.
(guys stop reading here)


me: what's this? is it a tampon? looks like those kinda thing people stuff up their nose when they have a cold
gwen: HAHAHAHA.. (she said the name of some movie and went back to her work)
me: OMG! this is a TAMPON??? YUCKKKKK!! (and i threw it away from me)

and i went on for another five minutes about how gross it is and how i don't know anyone who uses a tampon and how it's like a plug.

then i went back to doing my work. but gwen got me started again when she threw the tampon at me.

gwen: OH! want to see another type?
me:.... ok....?
(gwen hands me another one)
me: eee! why is it so hard??? (it was just the wrapping)
gwen: omg.. tsk! i sacrifice one and teach you how to use want? ok? ok?

i was extremely amused by how it works. the type with the string. yuck. omygoodness. dam gross. i didn't dare to touch it at first. after that i was swinging it by the string and hitting gwen with it. ("STOP HITTING ME WITH THE TAMPON!") then some time later i told gwen it looked like a white mouse. and she drew eyes on it.

hahaha.. that's why we laughed so much. so disturbing right.. reminded me of how a few weeks back desmond (NOT the palmerston one) looked through my bag and found my UNUSED pad (which was wrapped in a map) and asked me what it was. so i told him it was a pad. but he didn't belief. so he kept on asking. and i kept insisting it was a pad. so he unwrapped it a little and found that.. it WAS a pad! haha and he totally freaked out. hahaha... uber funny!

ok back to work.

ranting IM CRAZY AT 3AM!

RAHHHHH!! it's nearly 3am in the morning and i just came outta the shower.
this is one of those times where i need to rant ad rave and tell someone that i cannot stand having so many things going on in my head - what's right, what's wrong, where do people draw the line, what's good what's better, what if.
it's not that i'm emo or anything, but whenever i look at a couple, or a to-be couple, i can't help but take a step back and ask myself if i am like that, or if i will be like that. many times i look at what i see in other couples and go "what in the world..... they shouldn't be doing that." then i stop myself, and say "who are you to say anything, you may just end up like them one day".

history of ideas is giving me such a headache. i realise im much better off sticking to math (however averagish i am at math) than do arts in uni. if only dong and i could switch brains for my HoI paper, i'd totally ace it. i think. ah God you have to help me out here okae!

anyway, just so you (sam, DJ, yi sheng, chin) know, i bought a dress today. haha.. sheesh. i still remember how these crazy ac boys were trying so hard to convince me to try on a dress at vivocity. awwmaaannn!! i need to hang out with my friends NOW NOW NOW!!

i think i'll go listen to tim goh's sermon again.

hmph!

lalala :) "stay away from elisa you evil HoI paper! i'm a kick-a** arts student!"

woohoo singapore!

i just saw a picture on facebook and immediately recognised that it was taken in a CHANGI AIRPORT TOILET!!!

man.. i suddenly feel quite excited about going back. yay changi airport!
without changi airport, where would all the students study?

tears dont mean im sad

running all the way to the post office in the rain to find it closed was like running the hundred metres over and over again only to come in last in the real race.

ching's pretty good at making people feel better.

anyway, while everyone else was at grand hyaat taking prom pictures, i was at OCF. in the beginning of the year, we were given 3 questions to answer.

1) who you think Jesus is
2)some of the things Jesus did
3) some of the things he taught

we wrote our answers and sealed it in an envelope which was kept by the committee.
that was at our first bible study. today was our last bible study and the envelope was returned to us.

when i opened up my envelope and read my answers, i felt overwhelmed by.. the change i've gone through. i dont even want to try explaining the feeling. they call it growth. *shrugs. what can i say, i needed to talk things through and i thank God for having someone to talk to.

dong reminded me that he can talk a lot and comfort me, but he's not gonna be there all the time. only God can, and will. and my comfort should come from the Lord. dong may know a lot, but only God knowss everything. dong can give me tons of head knowledge, but only the Holy Spirit can give me heart knowledge that will change me.

:D