starving but not hungry?

woohooo. sigh. there are bout 2 or 3 very annoyingly demanding thoughts in my head that i'm trying to get rid of right now but i can't seem to pin point/express them very well at the moment.

you know how sometimes you feel like you're stagnant and you don't hunger, yet you KNOW that it's not good to NOT hunger. your stomach is empty and you want to feel hungry. because it is only when you feel hungry that you will eat. i feel like i have an empty stomach but i'm not hungry.

i had a nightmare 3 or 4 nights ago which triggered a short chain of events that probably explains why i've been moody or deep in thought the past few days.

it's good to depend on the person you were made to depend on.
depending on someone else, or something else will just lead to disappointment.

do you wanna be better to meet those expectations? or do you wanna be better because it is pleases God?

every heartbeat says i need you. show me i need you again.