Turning 21

it was a relatively quiet 21st. I say relative because the few times i've thought about planning my own 21st party, i pictured a really long list of friends i'd like to invite, and I pictured being able to get everyone to at least take away some food for thought.

i wouldn't have had it any other way though. had it been any bigger (or if it had been another other group of people),  i would have felt the need to entertain and catch up with them.

i left behind the need to belong or depend on 877.  despite my want to reconcile, i've also begun to see how it really doesn't matter if this desire to reconcile was met with rejection or apathy.

golly. this has been a difficult post to write. can't quite say what i wanna say without divulging really personal thoughts.