dead of night

it's 4.30am and dead quiet save for the sound of warm air blowing from the aircon. i realise it's been awhile since i've had time alone to think about nothing at all, and where i dont feel like i'm missing out on something else while im alone.
for the past many nights i've just been homing at the penthouse, coming home only to sleep, because i just wanna be with these people.

"what does love feel like?"
"im not sure love's a feeling.  the nature of love is care.."
 and care can be expressed in many different forms.

tim said not to worry about how to love a person. just search for that one extraordinary thing in him or her.


quote that reminded me of chris because this is what he said when i asked him why he let himself live in discomfort for the sake of this other person:

Be kind to everyone you meet. They're all fighting a battle you know nothing about.