like a submarine

brain flab. spent most of tonight at kareoke with the familee. first time for me. it was alright. there were fun bits, but i'd still choose going to a cafe over kbox anyday. i'm comparing elisaatkareoke with elisathedgleader and there's a stark contrast.  i think a lot of my behaviour in groups depend on the role i play or see myself playing. not that im a different person...... or am i?


like i'm different when i'm with dong from when i'm with caleb, different when i'm with mum from when i'm with dad. i guess that's normal. i suppose then the intergrity lies in the values and character i hold when i'm in all these different roles.


i've dragged this post on since sunday. can't remember what else i was gonna say. but yesterday, i had another listening point. far out. pride stripped away again. which is good but again, uncomfortable.



23/4/2012
listening point: my vision for toastbar is for relationships to form and for community to be built. i want to be able to empower people but at the same time, i realise that in the past few weeks i've been thinking more about running the operations of toastbar and worrying about the accounting side of things more than thinking about the relationships i've been having with people. 


last night's meeting with the core team was a challenge. being called back to refine what is good and what i want again.