End of a week's "break"

I'd say that Toastbar's pop-up store was a success. (4-7th Mar)

the way i've chosen to define success here is especially important to me, for myself more than for anyone else to understand, because I'm trying to work out what the specifics I prioritize are, and what i value.

it was a successful 4 days because..

I saw people coming together, not for money

I saw at least one person being empowered to do something she enjoys

I saw many people using the once-dead space and enjoying it

It enabled me to meet a fair few other people in the building. the start of new relationships!

This week has been fantabulous. not that I enjoyed every bit of it, but i'm so satisfied and, i feel so full.

So a lesson I learnt last week was that I needed rest. I needed to remember to rest.

This week of gearing up for Toastbar's official launch has taught me something else. While I rested, I realised that i've neglected my relationships with people. New relationships have strengthened and for them I am grateful. But that is still no excuse for me to 'forget' the ones i love.

mmpf.

I also realised this evening that I've become slightly more cautious about who i share with regarding how setting up Toastbar has been for me. quite a few people asked me about Toastbar at a party this evening, and i realised that there was this one person that made me hold back.. perhaps my gut is learning to tell when a person is likely to be slightly too cynical to catch the spirit behind why i'm doing what i'm doing.

the other matter i've been trying to work through is also coming to accept that Toastbar does not have to be here at all and that I need to hold on lightly to it. in fact, we could all decide tomorrow that we dont wanna follow through with our 19th March Launch, and just close shop completely. My identity and security don't lie in the existence of Toastbar. Try holding on lightly to your baby.