Anxiety reveals the smallness of myself

Only the great self, the True Self, the God Self, can carry our anxieties. The little self cannot do it. People who don’t pray basically cannot live the Gospel, because the self is not strong enough to contain and reveal our delusions and our fear. I am most quoted for this line: “If you do not transform your pain, you will always transmit it.” Always someone else has to suffer because I don’t know how to suffer; that is what it comes down to. Jesus, you could say, came to show us how to suffer, how to carry “the legitimate pain of being human,” as C.G. Jung called it. Beware of running from yourself and your own legitimate suffering, which is the price of being a human being in a limited world.

From A Lever and a Place to Stand:
The Contemplative Stance, the Active Prayer, pp. 79-80
From T's facebook update

Sourcing for things is difficult. This treasure hunt is tough. I do really feel like a roti prata. Deflated and flat out. i know days like that will keep coming, and i need to press on. the hours i have feel clocked because i'm not being paid by some huge monster organisation. yup dont feel like writing anymore.