too much on our plates

where do we invest our time and energy?
today i saw a familiar face at the melbourne uni night market. it was the umpteenth time i saw him at a uni club/societies event. him spending so much time at these things really made me wonder where i am/want to invest my time and energy.
busying myself with the normal uni clubs feels too empty and meaningless to me.
it's great that people are coming up with all these fancy events, it's good fun, spices up uni life.
but i want more.
what can i say
time and energy are entities that are becoming increasingly hard to manage.
24hours a day ought to be enough for rest, work and worship. ( i don't know who you worship - you could be worshiping your books.. or boyfriend.. or LV bag)
anyway my point is, im feeling slightly heavy/moody because i've got an urge to DO something. go out there and do something. no no not change the world or anything big.
im a commerce student because i want a stable job in accounting.
but i don't want to be an accountant for the rest of my life, i don't think.
i don't have a big huge dream of being a top accountant and be a fabulous high-flyer.
i don't think i want those to be my top priorities.
i see this girl who's getting involved in so many activities, too much on her plate?
who knows. if she does well she'll have a fantastic looking cv what with her high level of confidence and determination anndd ability to sell herself well. i wonder if she'll turn out to be someone who will sell her soul to her work.
i don't wanna be like that. i always see her alone. im always alone too. she's probably really comfortable with doing things herself and not needing to stick to someone. im comfortable running from place to place myself too, but i also realise the need and importance of good relationships. see, i don't want to be a workaholic because workaholics hardly see the value of relationships. i don't wanna be a self-ish one-man-show-er.


ok i'll stop there.

i want someone to share hot cross buns with.