it looks different everyday

the sky looks different every morning! today, it looked like a rainbow because the colours became really evenly spread. i was uploading that picture when out of the corner of my eye i spotted some odd shaped things in the sky!! i was soo excited i tell you! i'll upload the other pictures now.

see the two dots on the left of the picture? my mind immediately went "*gasp! HOT AIR BALLOONS!!!"

and look! at the same time there was a low rumbling noise - it was coming from the spark on the upper right hand corner. that was a helicopter checking to see if melbourne city is happy and sound! :Dman.. look at how the sky looks! i can't tell if this picture's focus is on the sky or the hotair balloon. probably means it's not a very good picture, but look at the sky! it's magnificent! i want to be on a hot air balloon and see that kinda sky too!!and just when i thought there were only two romantic couples on hotair balloons, many more started floating up! :D they're absoloutely amazing. i think there are about 7 or 8 of them in the sky now. some have floated too high/close for me to see from my window.

today, when i was watching the sun rise, i thought of ratana. how when i first met her, we watched the sun rise together from the back of the orphanage. she probably thought that was nothing, but i, then 13, just insisted that the sunrise in cambodia is prettier than the sunrise in singapore so i just HAD to watch the sky turn colour there. then i thought of khemra. the second time i watched the sunrise in cambodia was 2 years later with him up on the watertank. khemra, ren, daniel and i had not slept the whole night because it was our last night there. i miss them. here i am thinking - "im in uni now, living on my own, paying my own bills (with mummy's money), trying to cook my own meals.. and khemra is older than me. what would he be doing? he's not a kid in the orphanage anymore"

all this just makes me want to go back. aimee and i were having lunch together yesterday and she told me about how cynical she's becoming of the whole "go help for a week or two" thing because the effects don't last very long, and going there may hurt the kids even more than help them because they will have to say goodbye and be sad. i reckon going on short-term trips like that can still be good for them though.

i suppose at the end of the day, we ought to have genuine care for people. sounds so mother theresa. doesn't sound the least bit easy at all. but the world probably needs more people like that.