just an honest post of memory

i went to see kchao's friendster profile last night.
it certainly brought back a couple of memories, nothing i wish to remember too much of, neither anything i want to forget.

then i was reminded of another person. three times tonight. first was when i saw his name on msn beside a green msn man and my hands turned cold. i still cant figure him out, not that im desperately trying. maybe the way i feel about him is the way he feels about the Big Papa. He's big enough to find me.