Like I'm in High School Again

Funny how I still dream of him once in awhile, and funny how each dream seems to represent a break through - at least on my part.  Yet I'm not sure how he has dealt with it all.  Kong Kong said never to mention his name again - to dust off the past like it never was there.

Funny how something or someone once so important can be made like it never was.  

I wonder if I'll ever find something or someone that causes me to feel so filled, so satisfied, yet leaves me desiring and yearning for more.  And i know in my head what the answer should be but o that my heart would know.

Part of me wants to rebel and be that prodigal son.  Im done with cliches, slogans and over used phrases.  I want something that makes me feel as alive as the taste of adventure and deep deep love.