nostalgia?

remember when i was 12 and i was at a camp with Y. and i had a crush on J. and A tried to find out who i liked and was doing a bit of gossipping and it upset me. J found out and told A off. A got upset and made me look really bad in front of Y who became really mean to me even though she was supposed to be my bestfriend.

i still see Y around. not so much of A, and not at all of J.

i wonder what it'd be like to be 12 again. or 13. when boys first learnt to go after girls and not run away from them. aahahahaha! kidding.

i reckon the most interesting part of puberty is when girls and boys start noticing each other. (haha it's definitely not the bloody stuff).

we were talking about love in cellgroup last friday. jon lee pointed out the difference between philia and agape - philia being the non-romantic love and agape being the self-sacrificial unconditional love. and i learnt that even though you may not have butterflies in your tummy, or necessarily FEEL any feelings of love towards someone, it doesn't mean you don't love him/her. similarly, you don't call a crush, love. love is such a wide, vast indescribable concept/thingumajig that's not easy to define or understand. what is it that keeps married couples together even though he doesn't buy her anymore flowers, and she doesn't give him as much attention? what is it about boy-girl relationships that make certain single people desire a partner? what does loving people mean?