ache

i dont feel good about going back.
and at the same time i dont want to stay because house 4 is empty.
i wish the exam period could continue.

(im probably just mood swinging because its that time of the month)

but i feel BLAH lousy.

i went to see vanessa at royal melbourne hospital this morning.
she's looking good. i told her about how i cut andrew's hair last night and she kinda brightened up a little.
after that, daryl dong mandy and kyle came to pick me up from home and we all headed to prepare for kyle's barbeque at south k.
i spent most of my time at the bbq pt with daryl. didn't feel like mingling very much and eventually went upstairs and talked to dng instead.

im at amy's place now. three families are here including my own. im just thinking about.. going back.. and emotional attachment.. and how i dont want to see the sun set from home.. how i don't really wanna be in my house. i wanna be somewhere else.

feels weird.